Wednesday, July 08, 2009
my mood's changing, like that swing .
i don't know where to start. that question, you have asked me so many times. accepted once, twice. rejected once. there'll be a twice. because i don't think u really understand what i want. it feels like you don't understand me at all. and you don't bother anyway. you keep asking to patch. yes, its easy to say yes. but think about it. if we get back together again, without knowing or learning from our mistakes, we'll just end up with the same problems. maybe it's just me. i don't open up enough. and maybe its just me that's feeling this way. definitely not maybe. your lack of emotion makes me wonder if those three words are just words, or do you really mean them. what i really wanted from you, was for you to show me that you really cared. that message last night showed me so much. i even gave you another try. if you really cared, the answer would have came out naturally. sadly, it didn't. and all this just makes me wonder; did you really mean them? or are they just words you say to every girl that comes along?
i'm sorry for giving you all this pain and troubles. i'm sorry for giving you false hopes. i'm sorry for everything. but you won't accept my apology anyway. because to you, saying sorry is useless if nothing changes. and because all you wanted from this was just a girlfriend. i just hope that i'm wrong about everything.
