Monday, August 31, 2009
went lot with xuemei again today .
supposed to go playground , but ..
anws , went library to study ,
ended up crapping .
:D
exited library , suddenly no mood .
walked around , went [u]morethanwords[/u]
bought her coinbank .
so now she owes me the softtoy and i don't owe her anything :DD
hehe .
oh yah , had teacher's day celebrations .
very mild this year . ):
one more week to september holidays :D
means shopping spree !
hehe (:
this was not how i imagined today to be . i miss you everyday . but because its today , and the fact that i'm not the one that you're spending it with , hurts even more . i hate you for all that you have done , so why is it that i still can't forget you ? and what she said today , although it had absolutely no connection to you , it made me think of you again . i feel so empty without you , but yet i don't want you back , because i don't want to make the same mistake . yet no matter what , i still cannot forget you , cannot forget the memories , the moments 170409 , 200409 the first time i held your hand, first time i hugged you . 220409 , the first time we broke up . 240409 , the first patch . i'm just wondering , how could you treat me so well one moment , and the next you confess to someone else , and then just leave without an apology , leaving me with nothing but painful memories and a crappy excuse . you probably aren't even thinking about me on this day . why do i have to suffer when you're not ? when its you who caused all this ?
so much to say , but who would be willing to listen ? its also over already , why think so much ? but they won't understand that when you truly like someone , its not so easy to forget him .
i think i'll sleep early tonight .
at least tomorrow's a holiday .
